i am future-centric.
in the balance of my energies between past/present/future,
i do not harbor much energy in the past. i think i probably
sit pretty well with the past. i use it but do not lament it, etc.
am not guilty about it.
the present is hard for me to stay within, often. but i can do
it when doing activities i’m used to. meditation magnifies this
incapability greatly but i do see the potential to change this
over time – mostly due to changing my daily habit as well;
finish whatever you start before going on to the next thing. i often
see myself using 20 different computer programs at the same
time, no exaggeration. there’s no way this helps my brain lock
in and focus on one thing, no matter how much time i spend
meditating in the morning.
i am constantly doing little things and thinking about the future,
anxiety is there but subtle. anyway. when meditating i often
get very excited about being able to write things down from
the meditation. this keeps me from being in the moment a
good deal of time during the meditation!